Sometimes I just feel the need to blog. I find it very therapeutic. Tonight's blog has to deal with loyalty. A friend of mine gave me a s sign that said people are not loyal to you they are loyal to their needs of you and when their needs change their loyalties change. I think that is too true. I have had it happen to me at least 6 times in the past 6 months. People have been saying I have changed and guess that is true. Fact is when you take a knife and stab it into some ones heart it is never the same again. The ironic thing is the most recent incident of someone's needs and loyalties changing came from a different place. It is not totally un expected. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately and some things are becoming clear to me.
One of the most recent things that has came clear to me is some of the things that have been told to me about someone may be true. I have developed the need to test people's statements and feelings lately. I talked to someone told them what I would not tolerated and still they tried to do some of what they knew I would not stand for, and still she tried to do it. I am nearly in the mind of leaving the world of on line games for good. It used to be fun back when people trusted you and stood by their friends and minded their own business instead of net stalking others for the sole purpose of trying to make their life miserable. How miserable must their lives be that the high point of their day is net stalking someone hundreds of miles away for the sole purpose of trying to make them sad?
All I know for sure is I have so much more anger then I used to. The least little thing makes me flair now a days. I think I need to work more on controlling my emotions and less about on line games.
